So yeah, at almost 28 years of age I decided to get what I truly deserve and strive to do things I can. I am gonna give up on things that hold me and change things I am not happy with.
For last 8-9 years, one thing that mattered the most for me was my sister. And it was working out well for me. I was doing well in life, I was happy, I was ambitious, the main inspiration in working towards my goals was to make her feel proud. This friendship was pretty important for me as it gave my life purpose, there is someone who believes in you, someone who’s got your back, someone to inspire, motivate and cheer you up. This was something that made me hope for the best.
But lately, things have changed. The person was still very much important to me and I was really missing them. And I think it was not mutual, I was the one always missing them, always asking to keep in touch and so and so. There were couple of incidents of not telling me things or lying to me. So everything kinda added up in my mind and I felt I was not being treated with the respect and kindness I deserve. and once I realised that, It made all sense to move away from that friendship.
I don’t wanna keep giving the maximum to your bare minimum. I desired so much from you but you chose not to. It’s not easy to keep fighting for this, cause I am the only one fighting.
Thats it. We are both giving up on each other. It’s hard for both, we have been there for each other at when we needed others the most. and have given too much importance to each other and in doing so started trusting so damn much. It’s not there anymore. Even now I badly wanna talk but I know it’s better not to. No more blogs on this matter or no more crying.
So yeah, I am not settling for anything in friendship. I should not settle in my job too. I deserve a wonderful career. And I should not settle for anything less. I need to get a good job that I love somehow. Will quit EY by dec end!!
I need to trade well and make money, I need to be systematic and protect the capital. I need to have emergency fund which will be used for applying IPOs.
I need to take care of fitness and be really strict with not missing the gym and not missing the diet.
I need to read everyday. Meditate, pray, I need to be more closer to god than ever before.
I need to treat the people in my life in really good way. Start going out of your way to help others. Show them the love you deserve