I saw this quote in Insta today and yeah it is so true. It’s stupid to miss people and chase people. you aren’t gonna get back what you are missing. so let go. move on . be happy
I remember this thought I used to have when Amma was sick and I had no idea why is it happening to only my mom. I felt alone and really experiencing it alone and not being able to share fully with anyone. I was taken to school psychologist but I just said I am okay, all good and walked out. I guess if we can’t talk about something, then we probably isn’t okay.
Well, this was one of the reasons why I wished for a sibling. So I don’t have to go through it alone. We will be there for each other. I guess that ingrained in me I guess. Siblings will be there for each other in good and bad times!
Even if it’s something about one sibling, for the other sibling it will be the same as his/her problem.
But yeah, when one sibling feels like this is just my problem or the other sibling doesn’t care then they tend to deal with the problem by themselves and also detach from the other sibling. When the other sibling gets affected by detachment and reaches out to sort things out but then he is neglected. He feels like he is not important to he as she is important to him. She is okay even if he is not okay. May be she wasn’t okay but then. But then we should be there for each other no matter what and not just when convenient.
I think we reached in this stage only because we stopped the random calls once a while. We stopped telling each other lil things. We stopped video calling. No texting too. No updates . And whenever we talked it was all just frustration pouring out of not talking. basically I was calling the other person out for not talking to me cause I was fucking broken. Other person was like I was going through shit, why don’t you understand me. Well, it gets pretty hard to understand people when they are far away and you suck at communication and also you act like everything is perfect. I just don’t care about you
So yeah, I don’t feel connected anymore. I don’t think I’ll say I love you, sis ever.
It was the person to whom I have said I love you,3000!!
Crazy!!!
I am just happy and at peace now
When the thing that you feared the most has happened and now there is nothing you got worry about! The calm, the samadhanam!! I like it